Just got back from camping with friends last week; that was a ton of fun, I kinda wish it didn’t have to end, living in the woods with friends cooking strange meat on a fire just kinda felt like the way life’s supposed to be. Also I started hrt on Monday, and everything’s just going amazing right now.
I think I’m actually happy, I like this.
Sorry I haven’t commented on one of these in a while. Life’s been a bit of a mess. I don’t know how to feel anymore. Stressed? Terrified? Anxious? Does any of this actually matter?
Have to make a 9 hour drive up north to Georgia for an appointment early October, didn’t expect to have to do that. Apparently starting new care was recently banned here, so that’s…it sucks. Just trying to keep my sanity till then at this point.
Turns out some family members I have to see regularly are very transphobic, so… yeah. That’s been oh so fantastic for my mental health too.
Venting aside (I’m sorry) the best news is definitely getting a new car. Traded in my aging SUV for a much newer Subaru, and absolutely love it. Finally something that wasn’t a hand-me-down, that’s mine and my own. Also managed turned that now required drive to Georgia into timing perfectly with a camping trip with some friends up there, so that’s something worth looking forwards to.
Sorry if any of this was saying too much. I’ve been stressed way out.
There’s a 50/50 chance I just got myself fired for standing up for myself at work, I’ll find out on Tuesday when I go back in, I guess; it really doesn’t matter to me anymore, I wasn’t happy there, just stressed. If I’m not, then that’s cool.
This is definitely the most euphoric I’ve felt in years, I think I’m going to celebrate with a trip to the beach and maybe look for some spots to skate. I think I’ll start self advocating for myself more, too. I like this feeling.
Had a mental breakdown over the weekend. Ended up spending a day on self care, and I think I’m going to start working towards making some changes in my life, cause this isn’t working for me.
I think that’s from mastodon users, and how mastodon works when replying. I haven’t personally used mastodon though, so someone please correct me if I’m wrong.
I don’t know a lot about biology or things like that, and this is probably a bit of a mess of a thought, but a lab grown brain in a jar could have some really interesting implications if given, say, a computer, as it’s sensory inputs and ways of interacting with the world.
Would it know what it was? How might it socialize? What would it do on the internet? Would it understand the difference between real human controlled characters and AI characters in a video game? How effective might it be at learning our languages, and communicating with us in them? What might be the most effective way/medium for it to learn a language?
I think it would be really interesting to study, and I don’t imagine there would be many ethical issues?
Brown, with blue a close second.
My best friend from when we were kids reached out to me, and we re-connected! I’m so happy I might actually cry!
Also, so I suddenly get motion sick super easy now, which is kinda funny since I had zero issues with VR headsets for hours at a time before, and now a flat screen can be too much. Also apparently I’m squeamish now too? Had to deal with dead bugs at work and it made me feel so sick. Weird.
Anyways my week has been fantastic so far and I’m actually starting to enjoy life, even things like folding laundry or standing in a line to vote.